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TL/DR: I had a breakdown, quit my job, and feel much better

People who don’t know me well or see me regularly didn’t get it. At first only three people believed I’d done the right thing: my counsellor, my psychiatrist, and most importantly, me. Then I started telling people who’d seen how … Continue reading

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My big fat brain

In my last post I alluded to my ex-eating-disorder and how the BMI is evil bullshit. I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa when I was 16. I’ve finally recovered from actual disordered eating, but I’m less sure I’ve shed a … Continue reading

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Other things We Don’t Talk About: a long account of how my body doesn’t work properly

TW: medical procedures, bodily fluids, suicidality; white, middle-class, first world, cisgender guilt I don’t think I’ve overshared about this much, but I have at least one chronic mystery ailment. Anyone who’s spent time with me IRL will know that I … Continue reading

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On dipping my toes back in

At the end of my last post you can see the revelation hitting me like a giant bead-fringed scarf in the face: I need bellydance in order to be happy. I’m pretty sure I need ATS®. Some ancillary revelations have … Continue reading

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It’s not you, it’s me

  I did something scary today. I announced that I was taking a break from teaching dance. This has been a long time coming and I don’t know how long the break is going to be. I still love dancing … Continue reading

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Adventures in swinging the other way #stilladanceblog

God, I haven’t posted anything here since March. A lot has happened since then and I’ve had a lot of thoughts and written a lot of stuff, most of it is stream-of-consciousness processing in paper journals, some of it draft … Continue reading

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I stumbled out of bed, I got ready for the struggle (this is a post about posture)

There’s a person I work with who has good posture. Revision: there’s a person I work with who I think has good posture. Revision: there’s a person I work with whose posture I notice with approval. Let’s be honest, I’m … Continue reading

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The lost art of keeping my mouth shut

Introversion is dominant in my family. My mother was an extrovert and used to excel at filling the ample silences provided by the rest of us. When she died, I felt myself stepping into her role in that regard, even … Continue reading

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I know I go on about it a lot, but participating in Niyc Pidgeon’s Upgrade Your Success programme last summer was a great thing for me and has had all kinds of follow-on effects. One fun thing we worked with … Continue reading

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Back to the dance

I went to a ceilidh recently. It was like contra dances and folk dances I’ve attended before. You arrive and there are people smiling at you, and the room is rapidly becoming warm with happy bodies. You see people you … Continue reading

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